my sister Kendall (left) and me (right) putting on a show for the rents way back when
Going into my eighth grade year, I learned how to play guitar at a summer camp (Camp Desoto). I saw that the guitar class was offered before I went to camp there and decided to give it a try, so I took my dad's old guitar that he used in high school. I was really discouraged in that class because I was literally the worst one. I became very frustrated because everyone else seemed to catch on so easily. By the end of camp though, I was a little better.
When I got back, I decided I wanted to take guitar lessons and learn a little more. I started taking from a sweet family friend of ours and actually the same person that my dad took from in high school! I only took for about 5 months and then stopped because I had just learned the basics.
Eighth grade was the first time I performed singing and playing guitar. I played Alison Krauss' "When You Say Nothing At All" at the talent show at my school (the only year they opened up the talent show to middle schoolers- and of course I was all over that one). It didn't go smoothly at all, but I loved it.
Middle of ninth grade year is when I started writing my own songs. First "heart breaks" are the pits. But HEY I wouldn't be where I am now without them! My songs have always been my "diary out loud": things I wish I could actually say to someone's face or just thoughts or feelings. They're not always about boys, I promise. I have written a few songs about people in my life that have passed away and have left a great mark on me. My songs are just a mix of good and not so good things that have happened to me! Just thoughts and feelings! It's a great therapy. (If you want to listen to my music, click here.)
Over the years, the Lord has just put things into place when it comes to my music. When people talk about the Lord's timing, I know first hand that He has His perfect timing, it can just feel draining when His timing isn't matching up with ours (selfish, right?). The song "Waiting Room" by Jonny Diaz has been a good reminder that He has a bigger plan with his timing! Some of the lyrics are as follows:
Here in this waiting room yearning for You to say go
And though I’m convinced that a yes would be best
This time You’re telling me no
It’s not that I don’t have an answer
Over the years, opportunities to sing have been put in my lap. I have not gone out there looking for them, honestly. Even though it's my favorite thing to do, I just don't think about going out and finding places to play at in my spare time. And when places and opportunities to sing arise, I've learned this is a part of God's timing and perfect pace.
Today is one of those days where I honestly just want to quit school and move to Nashville and try to make a living. But today is also one of those days where I need to remember that God has a perfect plan and with His perfect plan, He has His perfect timing. If it is God's will for me to quit school and move to Nashville, then He will make that obvious to me. I'm not saying that is going to happen, but I mean if that's what the Lord is calling me to do, then I will answer that call. Until then, I'm in the waiting room yearning for Him to say "go" with whatever he wants me to do with my life, music or not.
In Christ Alone,